Nox Hart

Verse 13 a.m., lights off, phone still glowing Say I’m fine but we both know I’m broken Your name tastes like smoke in my mouth I breathe you in, then I choke it out

I been quiet, I been fading Smiling just to hide the shaking Every room feels hollow now Even when you’re around

Pre-ChorusI don’t cry, I just shut down Feel too much, then I black out If I let you go right now I don’t know who I’d be without

ChorusI don’t feel love I just feel you In my chest when I don’t want to I’m numb, but you still get through I don’t feel us I just feel you

I don’t feel pain I just replay Every word you never say I’m empty, but you still stay I don’t feel love I just feel you

Verse 2Silence louder than your voice Every touch don’t feel like choice I stay even when it hurts Guess I’m scared of what comes first

You say “time will heal the scar” But you keep pulling me apart I don’t bleed, I just sink slow Smiling while I overdose

Pre-ChorusI don’t scream, I dissociate Hold my breath, just to feel okay If I lose you anyway Why does letting go feel worse than pain

ChorusI don’t feel love I just feel you In my chest when I don’t want to I’m numb, but you still get through I don’t feel us I just feel you

I don’t feel pain I just replay Every word you never say I’m empty, but you still stay I don’t feel love I just feel you

BridgeIf this is love, why does it hurt to breathe If this is us, why am I losing me I don’t need saving I just need silence But you’re the loudest thing inside my head

Final ChorusI don’t feel love I just feel you Even when I’m fading too I’m numb, but I still move I don’t feel us I just feel you

I don’t feel right I just survive Another night with you on my mind If this is empty, it’s still mine I don’t feel love I just feel you

OutroYeah… I don’t feel love I just feel you

Verse 1You’re talking and I’m listening But I don’t hear every word I’m watching how your mouth moves Trying not to let it hurt

There’s a question in your posture Like you already know And I wonder if you feel it Every time I don’t get close

Verse 2I keep thinking about honesty Like it’s something I owe But I don’t know who it’s for anymore Or how much I should show

You say we’re fine like you believe it And I nod like I agree But there’s a moment right between us Where the truth keeps staring back at me

ChorusI haven’t left But I’m not staying the same I haven’t crossed a line But I’m standing too close to the flame

I still say your name Like it means what it meant But every time I say it I know exactly what I haven’t said

Verse 3I notice how I hesitate Before I touch your hand Like I’m measuring the distance Between who I am and who I’ve been

I tell myself it’s temporary That this feeling will pass But I don’t stop myself from wondering How long that lie will last

BridgeIf this is where it starts I wish I didn’t know Because knowing doesn’t stop it It just makes it slow

Final ChorusI haven’t left But I’m not here the same I haven’t crossed a line I just don’t turn away

I still say your name Like it means what it meant But every time I say it I know exactly what I haven’t said

OutroSome truths don’t ask permission They just wait

(Some truths don’t ask permission) (They just wait)

Verse 1I didn’t mean to stay this late Didn’t plan on letting time decide You said my name like it was safe Like nothing here was crossing lines

I could’ve left when the room went quiet Could’ve stood up, could’ve said no But the silence didn’t feel like danger It felt like somewhere I already know

Verse 2I told myself it was harmless Just a thought I didn’t speak I told myself it was honest To finally feel something real in me

Your hand was close but never touching Still I leaned into the space I didn’t fall into the moment I just didn’t walk away

Verse 3I said his name inside my head Like that would keep me in my place But it sounded distant, faded Like a memory I couldn’t save

I stopped pretending I was trying Stopped pretending this was wrong I didn’t need to break the promise I just let it come undone

Verse 4There was no kiss, no declaration No moment I could point to blame Just a quiet understanding That I wasn’t who I was yesterday

I let it feel like it was over Before it ever had to end I didn’t give myself permission I just stopped asking when

OutroIf love is something you protect I set it down instead Not because I didn’t care But because I finally let myself

Verse 1My phone lights up, then goes dark again I don’t know what I was hoping for I write your name, then erase it Like I’ve done this all before

The room is louder when nothing’s said Every sound feels out of place I keep rehearsing conversations That never leave my face

Verse 2There’s a question sitting in the air I don’t answer, you don’t ask We move around it carefully Like it might shatter if we clash

I thought I’d feel relieved by now Or certain, or at peace But all I feel is waiting And the weight of in-between

Soft RefrainNothing’s broken yet Nothing’s fixed I’m just standing In the quiet of it

Verse 3I count the seconds between words Like they mean something they don’t I scroll through moments we survived Wondering which ones still count

Every choice feels unfinished Every truth feels late I crossed a line I can’t undo Now I’m paused outside the gate

RefrainNothing’s broken yet Nothing’s said Just the space between decisions Hanging over my head

OutroIf silence is a consequence Then this is where it stays Not the ending Not the beginning Just the wait

Verse 1On the shelf above the bed That photo still remains His eyes still looking into mine But he’s already turned away The truth is always hard But the lie is even harder And if I’m being honest I’ll be hurting him tomorrow

Verse 2But tonight The tears all fall like rain And I pour my feelings out There’s a space between the sheets where he used to hold me now Another lover waits She was only meant as a friend It was never meant to be But I’m gonna hurt him in the end

ChorusAnd I’m so sorry And I know that I’ll regret it And I’ll tell him in the morning I don’t know if he’ll forgive it I’ll come home and we’ll talk it out And then we’ll fall asleep And while he’s dreaming of forever I’ll be dreaming of my best friend My best friend

BridgeHe said “forever” with his suitcase by the door Eyes red, asking if there’s someone I love more I could beg for his forgiveness, fall down on the floor But the only name I hear at night Isn’t his anymore

ChorusAnd I’m so sorry And I know that I’ll regret it And I’ll tell him in the morning I don’t know if he’ll forgive it I’ll come home and we’ll talk it out And then we’ll fall asleep And while he’s dreaming of forever I’ll be dreaming of my best friend My best friend My best friend

Verse 1I’ve been thinking it through in pieces Trying to line it up clean Like if I say it the right way It won’t feel like what it means

I tell myself we were drifting Long before I crossed the line That love doesn’t disappear all at once It just changes over time

Verse 2I don’t think I was dishonest I just didn’t say it out loud There’s a difference I keep repeating Like it makes me less guilty now

I wasn’t trying to hurt anyone I was trying to feel like myself And maybe that sounds selfish But I don’t say that part to anyone else

Soft RefrainSome things don’t break They just bend And you don’t notice Until the end

Verse 3I look back and I see the signs Like they’ve always been there Every silence, every distance I reframe it as fair

If this was always where it led Then I didn’t change the course I just stopped holding on so tightly When it started to feel forced

RefrainSome things don’t break They fade instead And calling it clarity Helps me sleep in my bed

OutroI say I’m finally being honest Like that settles the cost But clarity doesn’t mean innocence It just means I’ve learned what I lost

Verse 1I wasn’t thinking about you That’s the honest truth I was reaching for a coffee Doing something I always do

Then I heard the way you laughed In someone else’s voice And it caught me off guard Like I never had a choice

Verse 2It wasn’t even something big Just the way you said my name Like it always leaned to the left Like it never sounded the same

I tried to shake it off Told myself it didn’t mean a thing But my chest remembered faster Than my head could intervene

Soft Chorus / RefrainI don’t miss you on purpose It just happens sometimes Like a feeling that forgot to leave When I thought I’d moved on fine

Verse 3I don’t replay the worst of it I don’t go looking for pain It’s the small, unguarded moments That still know how to stay

The way you’d stand too close to me Like we were sharing air I didn’t notice it back then But now it’s everywhere

RefrainI don’t miss you on purpose I don’t let myself try But some memories don’t ask permission They just walk back into your life

BridgeI tell myself this is normal That it fades if I let it be But the past has a quiet way Of remembering me

OutroI wasn’t reaching for you I swear that much is true But some things don’t disappear They just wait until they’re heard

Verse 1I’ve said my piece in empty rooms Like that was something brave I’ve practiced all the reasons why I did what I couldn’t say

But there’s a weight I can’t outtalk No matter how I try It lives in all the things I changed In someone else’s life

Verse 2I see it now in smaller ways The pause before you speak The way your voice learned how to sound Like it doesn’t need me

I didn’t mean to be the reason You doubt what you believe But intentions don’t erase the mark Of what I chose to leave

ChorusI won’t pretend it didn’t matter I won’t say it wasn’t real I crossed a line and someone felt it Even if I never did

I don’t need to be forgiven I don’t need to be understood I just need to stop pretending It didn’t hurt like I knew it would

Verse 3I’ve carried this like it was mine Like that was all it cost But every step I took away Was something someone lost

And I don’t get to call it growth If I don’t call it true Some lessons don’t arrive gently They arrive because they’re due

ChorusI won’t rewrite what really happened Just to let myself move on I’ll carry what I’m responsible for And leave the rest alone

BridgeIf strength is facing what I’ve done Without defense or pride Then this is me standing still With nowhere left to hide

OutroI’m not asking for your mercy I’m not asking to be free I’m just learning how to hold What I put into the world And what it did to you And me

Verse 1There’s still coffee in the morning Still a song I like to play Still a quiet in the evening When the world gets out of the way

I still breathe a little deeper When I’m finally alone I still feel things when I let them I just don’t need to be known

Verse 2There are names I don’t say out loud But they don’t scare me anymore There are rooms I’ve learned to walk through That I used to avoid before

I don’t carry every question I don’t answer every doubt Some things don’t need fixing They just need to be allowed

Soft Chorus / RefrainThis is what still remains When the noise fades away Not the reasons, not the blame Just the parts that stayed

Verse 3I still know who I was then I still know who I became They’re not enemies or strangers They just don’t share the same name

I don’t call it starting over I don’t call it moving on I just wake up, get dressed And keep carrying on

RefrainThis is what still remains When I don’t explain Not the ending, not the change Just what stayed

OutroI didn’t lose everything I didn’t keep it all the same I kept the parts that could survive And let the rest fall away